He has not woken up in the middle of the night and eaten in the past month.
This is a good thing, right? He's obviously old enough to be sleeping through the night.
So here's my question?
Why and I still waiting for it? And why am I sad thinking that it's not going to happen anymore?
Of course not having to get up in the middle of the night is great and I can tell I am more refreshed during the day. However, I really do miss it. I miss the cuddling. I miss nursing in the dark, just him and me. I miss being all cozy under his big blanket with him. I miss holding his little hand as he squeezes my finger. I miss those 10-20 minutes of just looking at him. I miss spending time together, just the two of us. I think knowing that it's just another step towards growing up is also part of the reason I didn't want it to stop. I know this may sound crazy, but I don't mind getting up at night to nurse a baby. I don't care that I don't get to sleep for more than 3 hours at any given time. I miss it.
Apparently it's time for me to face the facts. My late night dates with Braden have come to an end. Am I crazy for feeling like this? For being completely sad about my baby finally sleeping through the night? I know there has to be other mommies out there that know how I feel. Especially with a second (or third, or fourth...) baby when sometimes the only one on one time you ever get happens to be at 3:00 in the morning.
So as not ready as I may be for him to be sleeping through the night, I might as well enjoy the sleep because I think it's here to stay. Maybe tonight when I get up in the middle of the night I can stay in bed and not go up and peek on him thinking "well maybe he's up and just forgot to call for me."
Or maybe not. We'll see. :)
At least I can look forward to this...
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...and this in the mornings!.JPG)
Speaking of Braden and sleeping, apparently this is how he likes to fall asleep almost every night now. :).JPG)
Is there anything better than watching a sleeping baby? Seriously, I love it!
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It's strange how bittersweet sleep can be. Baby smells, snuggles the little sighs. There never seems to be enough. But who knows, maybe teething will hit and he'll need you! :)
it's hard to watch them grow up sometimes! jude slept in our room forever and when he finally started sleeping in his own room last summer, i felt sad, too. it was bizarre. but then i quickly got over it when i realized how much i liked having my room back! haha!
lol I felt the EXACT same way with Parker... as a matter of fact, he slept in bed with me until he was like 14 months!! (Bad mommy, I know)
But with Audrey, who sleeps through the night almost every night and has for a couple months now (shes only 5 mo!) I don't mind the break... If I do have to get up with her, its ok...but if I don't I'm not sad like I was with Parker.
So, you are NOT alone... youare an EXCELLENT mommy who has so much love to give!!
God bless-
Amanda
You started sleeping thru the night when you were 4 weeks old Laura. That had been our only time to play, talk and cuddle...I understand!!!
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